The silence

From the moment I wake 

My head starts the chatter

What do I have to do today, just to feel like I matter

How can I help? Who needs my guidance?

My heart reaches out like the sun 

Peeking above the horizon 

In hopes that I’m needed or wanted for the day

That I can touch someones life like a warm bright yellow ray

If you ask me how I feel or what’s on my mind 

I’ll smile and say “you’re just too kind”

My face tells a story that my heart never believes 

The smiles, the laughs, only last until you leave

Then my heart sits in silence, my head spinning with questions 

Did I do enough? Did I care enough? Was my performance perfection?

There’s days I slip up and might show less emotions 

When someone points it out, my head starts the commotion 

Confusion and panic how to back track my actions

Drowning in emotion, just trying to get traction 

After all my words are used for someone else’s reliance 

I sit by myself 

Just drowning in silence